in the bardo of forgetting | {•5 axioms•}
1 memory is time | रूप
a moment ago, i sat down here; before that, i was making coffee; before that, i was washing my face; before that, i was stepping in the dim hallway then washing my face; before that, i was dreaming…
2 memory is emotion | वेदना
i remember feeling sorry for Dad, who had left the precious bag of lanzones on the bus; on the way home from work, he had stopped at a fruit stall at the entrance of Fort Bonifacio before boarding the crowded bus, spending the few precious extra pesos he had to surprise us kids with the treat…
3 memory is motion | संज्ञा
i distinctly remember the heft of the book as i balanced it on top of the A-frame announcement board on the sidewalk in front of Bernal Beast (a neighborhood pet shop in Bernal Heights) as i wanted to take a picture of the sky before the 24 Divisadero arrived…
4 memory is dream | संस्कार
is reconstruction is hallucination is confabulation is delusion is maya; i don’t know where some of these dreams lately are coming from but i’m pretty sure my subconscious does — why else would they be emerging thusly?
5 memory will be the last… | विज्ञान
…thing on my mind, i think. a flash of understanding as to: why the particular constellation of memories comprising my cosmos and its arc over time came together to make — and then unmake — me. it will all make sense. and then it won’t.
[ The 5th figure (or movement) from yesterday afternoon's SLS at the sidewalk near the stairs leading up to Jack Early 'Park'... ]
